Today was my last day temping for my “old” company. They hadn’t run out of work; indeed there would have been 2 maybe more days a week for at least the next month if not longer - but I have chosen to call it a day.
Let’s remember WHY I resigned in the first place. Back at the beginning of December, Mum hadn’t even had her trial day at the home, but landing up in hospital from stress induced problems had finally convinced me that things just could not continue as they were : work plus Mum was Too Much. Either Mum would like the home, in which case waiting for a room to become available could take a while & I’d need a lot of time to sort through and clear her flat, or she wouldn’t, in which case I’d have to look for a job with less hours anyway. I also desperately wanted to get off the treadmill for a bit, and get myself back to 100%.
As you know, things with Mum happened one helluva lot faster than I ever could have anticipated; not only did she like the home, but there was a room available straight away, and so January passed by in a bit of a blur - I had already committed to doing 2 days a week at the old place, but now had a flat to clear too, as Mum couldn’t afford her care home contribution and rent for more than a few weeks. This month I have been able to ease off the gas a little, but because I still had the involvement with work, I still found myself concerned with matters while I wasn’t there - had this happened OK, had that been remembered etc etc. I never have been very good at switching off.
And so, with the start of serious job hunting, I took the decision to have that time off the treadmill NOW - before someone offered me a job with an imminent start date. It’s a gamble, and I may end up having to go back to some sort of temporary work in 6 weeks or so if I’m not back in gainful employment - but better that than having to start a new job too early before I’ve had chance to catch my breath. That wouldn’t be fair on a new employer, and it sure as hell wouldn’t be fair on me.
It’s been a lovely last day too, with kind words, and chocolates, and more kind words, and more chocolates and flowers and cards…just really, really nice. And all along, I have had the same deep sense of calm, and absolute assurance that I’m doing the right thing.